shades of grey.

I'M SO TIRED I'M SO GLAD I DONT HAVE TO GO TO SCH OR WAKE UP EARLY TML.

guitar prac is ok. i'm so glad the seniors as in the sec 4s are indeed making an effort to get the orchestra together, but at the same time the rest of the orchestra is still as it was. i guess it will take some time.

prelude in g minor is ok.. just that the entire bass section aside from me shane and tim is missing cos of battle of the bands.. so they havent even seen the score yet. i guess its slowly picking up.. but the juniors from the orchestra 2 are picking up really slow and some just dun even bother. hai.

in terms of solo prac, i've kinda hit a dead end in my practice. after sunday's perf, which i did practice and psych myself so hard for.. kinda failed, i was super demoralised, still am. at times like this i feel like i need a revolution. the last time i felt like this was during the grade 6 - grade 7 days, when sch work was just taking up so much time. but later i found how powerful playing for passion was and this year practice has really been picking up. but after sunday, i dunno...

i'm just gonna rest with my free time for a while. sch is just so absolutely exhausting. i dunno about u all.. but i find paying attention quite draining in class, and talking to friends (those not so close to u) almost as exhausting, altho it isnt stressful. i think its just becos of my personality, that i find it really draining and that it takes quite a bit of courage to socialise. but 2 Cor. 12:9, God's power is made perfect in my weakness, and its times when i speak up despite my introvertedness that is most powerful.

but on an average day, sometimes i'd just rather be alone. with God and with my music.

posted by guitar123 @ 6:50 PM